"I CHERISH MY FRIENDS WHEN I CALLED ONE 'A FRIEND'. AND I HAVE THEIR BACK FOR THOSE WHO ARE NEAR ME.
THOSE THAT I HELD AS A FRIEND, THEY WILL NOT ONLY BE A FRIEND, BUT THEY ARE A FAMILY."

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Look Away

I was supposed to have my period on the 10th. Yet there's no hint that its going to come. I started to get sick on the 9th. Probably part of the symptoms that I am probably pregnant. 

On the 13th, still no sign of period. No pain no nothing. Doesn't even feel like having any at all. It has been 4 days now since my period due. I'm still sick and had a high fever last night. Coughing making my tummy and head pain so bad. Trying my best not to take any meds just to be careful that IF I am really having a baby. Night comes, and there goes the red blood flowing out. Pink-ish and waterry. Not like the usual period I use to have. Kinda dissappointed.

But I don't know. I had 'that' period only for 2 days. Now it has stopped. If there was a baby, its probably not mine to keep. I had to take the meds coz the pain is killing me. 5 days I stayed strong ignoring the sickness and pain just to be careful in case I'm pregnant. And then, it suddenly comes. That dissappointment breaks my courage to stay off meds.

I'm sorry.

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