Look Away

I was supposed to have my period on the 10th. Yet there's no hint that its going to come. I started to get sick on the 9th. Probably part of the symptoms that I am probably pregnant. 

On the 13th, still no sign of period. No pain no nothing. Doesn't even feel like having any at all. It has been 4 days now since my period due. I'm still sick and had a high fever last night. Coughing making my tummy and head pain so bad. Trying my best not to take any meds just to be careful that IF I am really having a baby. Night comes, and there goes the red blood flowing out. Pink-ish and waterry. Not like the usual period I use to have. Kinda dissappointed.

But I don't know. I had 'that' period only for 2 days. Now it has stopped. If there was a baby, its probably not mine to keep. I had to take the meds coz the pain is killing me. 5 days I stayed strong ignoring the sickness and pain just to be careful in case I'm pregnant. And then, it suddenly comes. That dissappointment breaks my courage to stay off meds.

I'm sorry.

Plan Ahead (Week 1)

So I've decided to make early plans, well as usual I always does, only that after 2 years I have been super packed with tiredness, work, stress and schedules, I have done less than what I usual does.

Anyway, because I will be off work anytime soon, so I thought if this will be the last, must make it count. I will never know what will come next time and what I can do in the future. I may not have any more chances next year....who knows, since I no longer earn income.

I am not gonna mentioned what I am about to do, or what are these about, because he might probably read it and I don't want to spoil the plans. Let him find out about it when the time comes. =)

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Week 1

So last week, I have make the deposit for one of the plan. The balance payment will be done later. And also I have fully paid the booking too. ♥

More things to do in the meantime, but still too early to be done. This one I did early because it needs to be booked early to avoid any inconvenience later. The rest I will prepare after. =)

I had few things in mind now, only wait for the time to do it.

I just hope for the best. ♥

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